Tuesday, October 5, 2010

WTF?!?!?

With 90 days left in 2010, I decided to return to the gym.  Not liking the way my body looks or feels, I knew it was way past time to get moving again.  Before I started this evening's workout, I stepped on the scale.  I weigh...wait for it...190 lbs!!! WTF?!?!?  How the hell did I lose control and end up here?  Sure, my clothes were tighter and the pouch under my navel was fuller but 190?!?  I am shocked and amazed at myself. 
I'm sad and frustrated.  Most importantly, I'm angry.  I am angry that I have allowed myself to swell up in this way.  I am angry that I have allowed self-loathing to manifest itself.  I am angry that I have held on to things that no longer serve me.
So, today was day 1.  I did 30 minutes of interval training on the treadmill and took a kick ass spin class.  I am already sore!
Tomorrow will be Insanity or Spinning in the AM.  The next challenge will be the nutrition.
November 2 is the first milestone.  The goal is to lose 1 clothing size.
So, I will be all about the fruits and salads, meal replacements, cardio and weight training. 
I'll keep you posted!

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